I see the world in a different light today
BECAUSE I GOT A NEW MATTRESS (BED)!!!! :D

Haha, i'm rather sad to part with my current bed, but my new bed is FABULOUS!

It's arriving tomorrow!!

Can't wait.

Daddy said something to me just now when we were choosing the bed.. He said,

"Dont need to choose something that will last very very long (1oyears)"

I replied, "WHY! Isn't more worth while?"

"Well, i don't expect you to still be staying with me in a few years time right..."

OMG. My heart pounced out, then i was reminded that in a few years time, I AM GOING TO BE SOMEBODY'S WIFE!!!!!!!!!

I am excited! And i can't wait to begin a whole new life with ..........................
HEHEHEHE, SECRET!!

Well, until now, my parents have no news about Reynard. :(

My my my..
I have orientations on 13th March. I AM NOT READY FOR ORIENTATIONS!

I am ready for school though. If i can skip the whole making friends part, life will be perfect! KIDDING. AWWW MAN... Everyone knows that Cheryl is not necessarily friendly at the first meet...

I have limited time to continue resting and playing before things get serious.
This week, i am meeting up with 2 good pals.

Tomorrow, i'll be meeting kirk for either lunch or dinner. He wants lunch, I want dinner.
Thursday, i'll be heading down to town to meet Anna for lunch. MUAHAHAHA.

Cordelia is flying off this Wednesday... I'm gonna miss her because she's not gonna be around for TGIF AGAIN!!!!!!!

I need to date Stephanie out for shopping soon. Ahhhhh....

I am currently obsessed with music. (Like since when was i not?)
Gym class heroes, fall out boy, panic at the disco, the academy is..., cobra starship, the hush sound.. and many many many many more. This is why i need a bigger space IPOD!

& she said, "keep my heart on fire... for You"

Yesterday was really a bad day.

Just yesterday evening, Mom woke me up from my nap.
At first i was really lethargic till she broke the bad news to me...

My childhood friend, met with an accident.
He was cycling along the road, and got hit by a lorry.
Currently, he is in ICU, and he has a fractured skull.

It really shocked me, because I just saw him during Chingay. He was one of the photographers, but he obviously couldn't recognise me.

When i heard the news, i really felt like crying.
My heart really went out to his family. Especially his newly wed wife for 2 years.

During EARTH HOUR last night, our family had our lights all switched off,
we used candles instead.


I gathered the tribe, (Sissy and Bryan)
We gathered in my room, with the 8 candles lit up, it was a pleasant sight.

And we began singing..


Healer, by Planetshakers.


I really sang it with all my heart. I believe that God is really the healer, and He will be able to heal Raynerd, (i have no idea how to spell his name)
I know that God will heal him, I have the faith that God is doing a work in Raynerd's life. But it's really sad to hear something like that happen to the people around you.


You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
You heal all my disease


I trust in You
I trust in You


I believe You're my healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus, You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands

& she said, "God, heal him, please"

Good day mate!

So like yesterday was supposed to be a fun day, but because of ME, the girls and I had to change our plans :(

But we still had a great day though.

First up, met Anna, Georgina, Andrew, Ammar, Marcus, Samson and Zichao at YCK mrt station
Zichao thought i was heading for work because i was carrying my laptop at hand and my laptop bag isnt the common ones. Yada...

After that, collected our cert, met up with Miss Lim S.P. :)

Georgie, Anna and I went to Bishan to have our lunch while waiting for Vanessa.





Georgie bullied Anna... by pouring this much cheese onto her chicken bolognese.









And then they went ahead to bully me but capturing unglam and ugly pictures of me and not allowing me to view it. They said "i'll tag you on facebook and if you delete, i'll put it up as my profile picture!"



I was telling them a story, and had to do this action...











Then we went back to school to accompany Vanessa get her cert. After that, we headed back down to J8 to watch...



The show was fantastic! I loved the show. It touched me.. Yada yada...

After that, I left because there were last minute things that i had to do. Felt very bad, because we were suppose to go to town :(

Sorry girlies!

But Anna was my angel and she is the best! :)



Say hello to my newly bought dickies!









I can't wait to start school because i'll be seeing them every single day again! Which is very much awesome!

I know i was supposed to update last night, but uh, i was distracted... Hehehehe.
By....



I LOVE THIS FILM! I REALLY REALLY LOVE IT!!!!

Tomorrow, i'm supposed to hang out with Cordelia and Raina. But Raina can't come last minute because she has training! :(

But nvm i'm still looking forward to tomorrow. Cause Cordelia is going to CHINA SOON!!!!!
And she is a precious jewel because ............................... :)

SO ANYWAY. GOODBYE!

Teach me to love - this is my plea;
May all the Spirit's graces shine through me;
Tear from my heart all hate, foolish pride;
Help me to live like Christ the crucified - PETERSON

& she said, "take away my paper heart"

Anna & I are watching AJ live right now.
And i cant help but laugh at the things he's saying. Hahaha, especially the part about his drummer.

OK

Back to the point.
I'M HANGING OUT WITH THE GIRLS TODAY!

Bye!!!
Await my long post of pictures!

Hi everyone.
I am back from Richard & Elizabeth’s Wedding.
I am so touched by their vows and just everything. Upon having them at my place for pre-marital counselling with my old man & now finally D DAY!

So anyway
We arrived at TC at like 1030am. Because Dad has to solemnize another couple’s wedding
So while waiting for Dad to finish solemnizing..



A whole lot of crap…
My beloved pair of heels that I absolutely adore!



The past and the present, if you click on the picture, you’ll see that my mom has changed a lot.



& yes, I have to give credit to my Sissy, because, she takes great pictures of me.



Brother, who is so bored!



Sissy’s book, that she read while waiting.



Mother, trying to keep us quiet. That picture was totally candid. & done by muah! J



& behind this wooden door, is the solemnizing room, which is very close to the room we were in, & that is why we had to be quiet because we weren’t exactly suppose to be there, as we were called, the “unwanted guests”













Then, we went to Fairprice to get stuff, and just basically waste time. Because we had to wait for 2 hours before the Richard and Elizabeth’s wedding.



A very bored me, in NTUC.

Yada yada, finally the Wedding ceremony began..



Dad, on the stage, preparing.



Dad, conducting the wedding.

The wedding vows and just everything touched me very deeply. I cant wait for my own wedding! Haha, I guess I could even roughly draft out how I want my wedding to be.

Baby Ariel came afterwards, so of course, I played with her just for a tiny while because the little girl was rather sleepy. But she was having a great time, using her balloon to hit her mom, sissy & my head!! She is one cheeky but very very adorable little sweetheart!

After everything, the TAN gang, headed to Han’s for lunch or tea break, whatever. We were hungry, & now, home.

Ok, that’s it for now.
I am having a very very bad headache. I need to rest.
Kirk says I’m weak, darn! I guess I have to agree to that.

& she said, “ive made so many mistakes”

20 March 2009, Friday

Ok so like I’m doing this on Microsoft Word because I don’t wanna sign into blogger and to only be signed out after a few minutes, because my laptop is running low on battery!

So anyway, Cor and I had a great time in MacDonalds’ enjoying the WIFI we had. She was happily downloading games into her Itouch, while I, being mesmerized and jealous at the fact that she has one, was busy surfing the net with my usual dosage of internet. Which is very important.

Had Ajisen Ramen for dinner. Cordelia tempted me!
Now I feel so broke. Because I already was. But now just even more broke.

Tomorrow, I’m attending Elizabeth & Richard’s wedding. And another couple that I’m not sure who yet. Cause daddy’s gonna be solemnizing the wedding. Just psycho-ed Gina to get my dad to solemnize her wedding so that I get a free trip to and fro. HEHEHEHE!

Booze, I’m thinking booze.

Actually I felt quite disturbed today. Or rather maybe, I’m just very very emotionally exhausted. But certain things cannot be made public L
Ahh well. I’ll do it in spanish soon.
I just really am tired.

Ok I’m still trying to waste my time hoping that the battery will be completely drained, so that I can charge it. I don’t think I’ll be charging it tonight. Because I think I’m gonna go hit the bed soon.

Gotta get up at 8am tomorrow to prepare! Man…..

I miss delirious? so badly right now.
I miss Raina too!

Ok, I’m gonna save this, so I can publish this tomorrow. Goodbye and goodnight world!

P/s, i just hate it when I’m put it that position. Extremely loathe it.

(Actually it isn’t goodnight, it should be goodmorning, its 12.03am now)

& she said, "i'm waiting for a miracle"

Caught Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street last night.
It was awesome. Loved it. Excellent movie.

I think Johnny Depp is honestly, weirdly charming. Haha.
But i have to say, the show is awfully dark. Haha.

Having 144 meeting tonight. Man, i dread it.
But i am reminded of my new year resolution.
Ahh well.

Meeting Cordelia in approximately 3 hours time.
She's stuck at Parkway from 12pm.

Bro just brought the food into my room. So sweet :)
Cause i was complaining that i was hungry & he hurried down to the coffeeshop to get me food.

& delirious? has yet to blog!!!!!! :(

& she said, "you see, i'm fragile"

Let Go by RuSoul

Anna introduced me to many many very unknown but awesome singers and songwriters.

And one of them, i have just posted the video. The song's called, "Let Go"
& i just really felt it speaking to me right now.
The lyrics and all.

The best part about these unknown singers, their songs are not only nice, but their lyrics are just great. To those who know me well, i'm not a lyrics well, i'm more of a tune person.

But for these singers, they taught me how to appreciate lyrics.

Just last night, a lot of things have been going through my mind.
And letting go, is something i'm learning and going through.
I've to learn to let go of the past and move on with the future.
Let go of my wants and know that God has it all planned for me.

Well, enough of me, i shall just let the lyrics speak to you..

I've been on this road
Far too many times, looks too familiar
Countless tears of disappointment
Screams of pain and sorrow fills my life
How much more can one take without giving up
No where to run or hide
When the road gets though

How many times in your life have you ever been down?
Feels like there's no one ever around
Just...

Let go, be still and know
That you'll never walk alone
Every step you take, He won't forsake you

Help me Lord, Lord i'm on my knees
Weak with desperate cries I plead
Work through me oh Lord, and help me let go

Many times in my life
Tried to do things on my own
He grabbed my hand and said 'my child, come home'

'Trust. Believe.
Dont ever doubt. That I'll be here
Watching and waiting
I will never let you down

All of those times in your life
That you've ever been down
My child, I've always been around'

Let go, be still and know
That you'll never walk alone
Every step you take, He won't forsake you
Help me Lord, Lord I'm on my knees
Weak with desperate cries I plead
Work through me oh Lord, and help me let go...

THANK YOU ANNA!!

One word: NOSTALGIA

I'm really feeling nostalgia right now.

I keep having flash backs on the past.
And i don't mean past as in a few months, a weeks ago.
But, many many years ago.

Way back into my childhood days.

So like what made me nostalgia?
I guess it was the bowl of red bean paste i had right after dinner.

Those childhood days, the innocence, the joy, the foolishness, the childlikeness.
Everything is badly missed right now.

Even though yes there were times when you really wish you could hurry grow old, but right now, all i can ever think about, was the fun times i had with my childhood pals.

Before life even started becoming complicated, before many arguments, before many misunderstandings arose, those were the days...

I remember, the times, when Keshia and I would stay over at each other's places. The only place, my parents would allow me to travel without them, would be to Keshia's place. I remember going to her place just to learn how to roller-blade. But Sissy ended up injured. Haha!

Also, i remember the many times when Uncle Andrew would have meetings at my place, then Keshia would come along, and we'll be in the room, talking about everything. Then we'll run out at about 9pm, just to check what was for supper.

And when we have retreats at malaysia. We'd go shopping together and sometimes even get matching clothes and sandals.

Every Sunday, after service, we'd go to the octopus coffeeshop and the Fish Soup Uncle would remember us, we'd just show him our faces, and he'll go like "ok! coming right up!" (in chinese like duh)
Then after eating, we'd go to the playground, and start talking about everything, playing or just simply listening to music.

And the times where You and I form a team and Raina and Jasmine became one. And we'd be staring at each other whenever we walk into Chapel. Haha. Those really were the days.

I remember we attended SML together with Cordelia, there we realised MingXuan was Cordelia's neighbour. And there after, we travelled to Cordelia's place then to Ming Xuan's place. And for my sake, Mingxuan had to lock his dog up and he told me "my dog is going crazy because of you!"

Haha, and the many other things we did that are too embarrassing to say or list in a public blog.

Oh how time flies. I really miss the innocence we all used to have. Of course, we're all grown up now but there is a part of me that really miss the bond we all used to have. Right now, it seems like all of us are slowly drifting apart and moving on.

Right now, it feels so weird to even say "Hi" to your parents. In fact your parents can't even recognize me. But i miss the times we'd bathe with cockroaches. I really miss the childhood days..

Where nothing would make me fearful for as long as I know, my dad has my back. Not that my dad doesnt have my back right now, but i know that it's time to mature up and it's time i take responsibility for my actions.

Right now, the cell isn't a cell anymore. It is just a group of old friends hanging out for old times' sake. I really miss the times when we were so bonded that nothing could tear us apart. And i guess, everyone has a part to play in creating the bond.

But i really really do miss the old times..

& she said, "this is the last sigh of nostalgia cos' we're inseparable."

STOP THE NOISE!

My neighbours have been really helpful in terms of helping me recover.
They have been drilling holes (i suppose). And the noise is exceedingly noisy.
I cant take it anymore!!

I am feeling much better today except for the fact that i'm just super drowsy and the bodyache is not at all helping too.
Darn. I actually have lotsa plans this week but guess Mom & Dad wont be allowing me out of the house anytime soon.

I'm still thinking if i should join the dance competition in June.
Hmm..

I've been thinking alot about families today.
I was watching the replay of "True Courage".

And the episode today was about a couple who were really bold and had true courage to decide on keeping their unborn child.
You see, their little baby was not like any one of us. He has deformities.
I cant really remember what is actually wrong with him but he was definitely much different from all of us.

So anyway,
I put myself in the shoes of the couple. & i was just wondering, what would I do?
To me, it felt like it was just cruel to bring the child to earth as he/she would just be suffering from the many operations, to the many different medications etc.

But yet, it is also cruel to abort the baby.
Sigh.

When i saw the images of the baby under the knife in the operation theatre, my heart really sank. The baby, or rather infant, had to go through so many operations. And i bet, it was definitely very very tedious, and painful for him.

This really makes me thank God that He made me the way I am right now.

& he said, "it was your smile."

FLU BUG!!

Yes, i've contracted the flu bug.
Ever since last week :(

A day before the conference, i fell ill. Had high fever. Flu & everything bad.

Today, the headache is just killing me.
I guess it's due to lack of sleep because of the conference.

How nice it is, to be attached to the Holy Spirit
So i've been really thinking about it today.

I feel really bad that I didn't stay throughout the service for Keshia's grandpa.
My deepest deepest condolences and greatest Sorry(s) Kesh!

Super touched by Cordelia. She has offered to do shopping for me in China. :)
Super thankful to have great friends by me.

ps. delirious? inspired me to blog again.

& i know i will see Your light, again.

I will miss you, Delirious?

Well, i am done with the G12 Conference. I have to say, the G12 conference this year is really different for me. With the volunteered and willingness to babysit darling Ariel. & many other thing. But the climax of the G12 Conference for me, was......



Delirious?

First of all, i have to say this.
I am very very much saddened at the news of them disbanding. Martin Smith has the best vocals live. (Besides Henry Seely) But Martin is just WOW. & his heart for children, is another amazing spirit i admire.

Then, there's Jon Thatcher.
WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW
I can never express how thrilled I was to be standing right in front of him throughout the many sessions they were playing. & JON THATCHER SMILED AT ME TWICE!!!!! :)

I cannot contain my excitement in watching them live & i cannot contain my sadness at them disbanding.

Even before G12 Conference started. I was there hours before the conference with dad and the rest of FCBC staff to set up and all. Of course, for not being a staff, i get to roam around doing anything I want.

So, with the permission of my dad, i had exclusion personal concert from the Delirious? to me. :D

I was in Max Pavilion right in front of the band, watching them rehearse, doing soundchecks and all.

At that moment, I wasn't as crazy over them like the way I am right now, but one thing I will never forget, was how much i enjoyed myself, 4 years ago at the FOP in SIS.

I spent 3 hours reading up their blogs. & i am so thrilled to see that Jon and Martin both love Photography!

& Jon has a crazy sense of humour. :):):):):):):)

Well, its really disheartening to know that this is the last time I'll be watching them live. The worst part, i've always preferred them live :(
They'll be disbanding in Nov.
So i have the next few months to save up thousands of dollars and confidence in my parents to send me to UK for another gig. The LAST ever gig they'll have before they move on with their lives to spend time with their families.

OK I PROMISED NO LONG WORDY POSTS. SO HERE GOES...

Introducing, the lead, Martin Smith. Father of 6 children :)







Introducing, my favourite bassist. Jon Thatcher. Father of 3 children :)

















& Martin again...









This is the rest of the band, doing the autograph session.



From front of back.

Drummer, Paul Evans, Lead, Martin Smith, Guitar, Stu G., Bassists, Jon Thatcher, Keys, Tim Jupp



Tim is hard to catch though.



& LAST BUT NOT LEAST...

A special from Barnabas to me. :D

Barnabas and Amelia were super priviledged to be able to take pictures together with the band.



The picture taken by Barnabas, he went back to print the picture into a postcard, got Martin's signature & gave it to me :D THANK YOU BARNABAS!

Credits to Cordelia & Raina & myself for the pictures :D

Anyway, i have also changed my playlist, just in case you're wondering. The songs, are by Delirious? (DUH!) These are the songs that really ministered to me & songs that i really really love. These are the few songs that they played throughout the 3 days they were here with us during the conference.

If you wondering, why there is a different language, it's in Spanish. Because, the recording is taken from their latest album (which i just bought, & have them signed it) that was recorded live in Bogota, Columbia. During a G12 conference there this year. So this is their latest & last album.

I am still waiting for more pictures from Gina & Cordelia. There were some taken with the digital camera. But then Cor's cam "something wrong" (as spoken by her mom, haha) so we had to use our lousy camera phones :(

ALRIGHT. ENOUGH OF DELIRIOUS? (If you're wondering, the '?' is part of their band name).

This is a picture taken by Raina of my darling baby looking greedy. For the past two days, the girls were enjoying the company of baby ariel and from their observation, cordelia thinks that she seems to look fatter each day.



& the girls think that i should not feeding her. EXCEPT during meal times of course. Well the baby wants food, & i love to watch her eat. :)

oh especially Ian. He seems to have his ways with kids and Ariel loves to play with him. Whenever she plays with him, it reminds of the time when Ariel plays with Alex. I wonder why guys just seem to capture of the hearts of babies more. Or is it just Ian & Alex? Hmm....

Ariel has really been a blessing to me.

Needless to say, i'm just a feather, slowly drifting away...